The week that Kim Kardashian cancelled Taylor Swift on Twitter, I found out that my fiancé was married to someone else. It’s a bit less punchy than it sounds. We’d been together for a few years, living together, doing basically everything together, and we’d been engaged for a year. He neglected to mention at any point that the ex-girlfriend we’d talked about intermittently, who he’d lived in, was in fact his ex wife. Or that they were still legally married.
I loved this but it makes me acknowledge I’ve discovered 2 things about myself this launch weekend and about fucking Twitter.
1. I got myself in a right pickle, feeling like I wasn’t a good-enough fan bcs I couldn’t decode every reference and I had to learn everything about the album before properly listening to it.
This is a really common trait of mine and I always want to analyse before I FEEL. I’m finally listening and feeling (and currently sobbing to But Daddy…).
This album is just…. and the joy is it’s ours to engage with. That’s what she says.
2. Fucking Twitter: I’ve noticed that even if my only engagement is to eyeball a tweet too long it can shift the algorithm. And that was happening to me w reference the negative shit. And then Jameela Jamil pointed out that it takes physical blocking etc to shift it back. I’m doing that and actively engaging w positive and that’s made a huge difference. Bcs I was starting to get a bit lost in the Taylor negativity too.
Try not to be too hard on yourself ( I know...) even the trolls that hate everything at least imagine that certain art is made for them, it's why they get so annoyed at Star Wars movies. And music is especially relatable because it's so direct, straight into the soul, if we are lucky. Personally I avoid anything from 2018, despite being over the whole situation, you know, more or less. The world is a better place with Taylor in it, which is something else you have in common. X
I’m still bristling from contact lens-gate. This doesn’t help.
I loved this but it makes me acknowledge I’ve discovered 2 things about myself this launch weekend and about fucking Twitter.
1. I got myself in a right pickle, feeling like I wasn’t a good-enough fan bcs I couldn’t decode every reference and I had to learn everything about the album before properly listening to it.
This is a really common trait of mine and I always want to analyse before I FEEL. I’m finally listening and feeling (and currently sobbing to But Daddy…).
This album is just…. and the joy is it’s ours to engage with. That’s what she says.
2. Fucking Twitter: I’ve noticed that even if my only engagement is to eyeball a tweet too long it can shift the algorithm. And that was happening to me w reference the negative shit. And then Jameela Jamil pointed out that it takes physical blocking etc to shift it back. I’m doing that and actively engaging w positive and that’s made a huge difference. Bcs I was starting to get a bit lost in the Taylor negativity too.
Try not to be too hard on yourself ( I know...) even the trolls that hate everything at least imagine that certain art is made for them, it's why they get so annoyed at Star Wars movies. And music is especially relatable because it's so direct, straight into the soul, if we are lucky. Personally I avoid anything from 2018, despite being over the whole situation, you know, more or less. The world is a better place with Taylor in it, which is something else you have in common. X